I feel like I can finally breathe. School has officially consumed my life and this whole "working hard for good grades" thing is so new to me. It's been a difficult transition but also a wonderful reminder of how good God has been to me. I am definitely blessed to be in Davis and I've taken it granted for too long. With my high school GPA, SAT score, and non-existent list of extracurricular activities, there's no way I could've made it to where I am now with the efforts of my own two hands. Everything in my life was placed together all according to His will (which always prevails!).
And yet even though He's proven to me over and over again that He always provides, I still manage to doubt His plans. I get worked up about the smallest bumps in the road and tell God, straight to His glorious face, that I'm taking over. For example, currently I seem to be concerned with the infinite amount of post-college options. As senior year continues to fly by quickly, my faith is being immensely shaken at the thought of being jobless and disappointing my family.
Sigh... at least the Bible keeps me sane and rebukes me whenever I need it. I do need a lesson or two on surrendering though.
