No, mercy doesn't care what you've done
So come home, so come home
I have this problem from time-to-time where I can't seem to forgive myself. When my heart feels heavy from drowning in regrets or when I know I've done wrong, I fear God and His wrath. I become like the prodigal son who thought he could gain his father's favor again by working for it. I spend more time with God - reading, praying, whatever it may be - thinking that I need to show the depth of my heart's ache to go back to my first love. But just like the father from the parable who welcomed his lost son with open arms and rejoiced at his return, My Father just wants me to freely embrace His unconditional love. He could care less about the small things that I have to offer. I guess I can't fully understand how this grace extends over all the sin of my past, present, and future. If they were all written down the list would go on for billions of miles and new ones would constantly be added onto it, but I know thinking this way is only limiting and doubting His power to make me clean and new. I have to keep reminding myself that the price was already paid so that I don't have to prove my worth. Jesus stepped down from His royal throne and shed His holy blood to save an undeserving sinner like me. Not only that but He chose to do it, for me, for you, for every son and daughter. Yes, I can't undo anything that's already been done but I can learn from my mistakes with a clear conscience and my head held high knowing that I am forever His.
Lamentations 3:22-23:
"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."-EDIT 5:40PM-
I heard this song on the radio today. It couldn't have hit me at a better time. Thank You, God, for the reassurance. You are so, so good. :')
I know you've heard the truth that God has set you free
But you think you're the one that grace could never reach
So you just keep asking, oh what everybody's asking
Am I more than flesh and bone? Am I really something beautiful?
Yeah I wanna believe, I wanna believe that
I'm not just some wandering soul
That you don't see and you don't know
Yeah I wanna believe, Jesus help me believe that I
Am someone worth dying for
You're worth it, you can't earn it
Yeah the cross has proven that you're sacred and blameless
Your life has purpose
And you are more than flesh and bone,
Can't you see you're something beautiful
Yes you gotta believe, you gotta believe
He wants you to see, He wants you to see
That you're not just some wandering soul
That can't be seen and can't be known
Yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe that you are
Someone worth dying for, oho
You're someone worth dying for, oho
You're someone worth dying for.
