There's a beautiful world out there but I feel trapped within these walls.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Bring on the Rain
And now comes the long-awaited post about my current life -
In all honesty, it's been difficult adjusting back to Southern California culture. Some obstacles were expected while others seemed to slap me across the face out of nowhere.
Awkward. Confused. Insignificant. Lonely. I guess those are the words that I find myself associating with lately. But it's okay, I'm okay.
Sometimes it takes a little stripping and a little beating from this world in order to be reminded that He's all you need. Nothing else and no one else, just me and Dad.
I know I'm here, and not anywhere else, for a reason. I'm in a place of silence and awe, where I'm rediscovering my identity and heart. It's not an easy place to be at, in fact it's been attacking my spirits pretty hard, but I cling onto the hope that the pain from this pruning will reveal it's purpose in due time.
In all honesty, it's been difficult adjusting back to Southern California culture. Some obstacles were expected while others seemed to slap me across the face out of nowhere.
Awkward. Confused. Insignificant. Lonely. I guess those are the words that I find myself associating with lately. But it's okay, I'm okay.
Sometimes it takes a little stripping and a little beating from this world in order to be reminded that He's all you need. Nothing else and no one else, just me and Dad.
I know I'm here, and not anywhere else, for a reason. I'm in a place of silence and awe, where I'm rediscovering my identity and heart. It's not an easy place to be at, in fact it's been attacking my spirits pretty hard, but I cling onto the hope that the pain from this pruning will reveal it's purpose in due time.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
50
I don't care what anyone says. I think aging is beautiful.
My mom hates to go out and eat at restaurants (or so she says) so every birthday/graduation/special occasion we end up staying indoors and having a small home-cooked meal; however, this year we decided to do something different. We all dressed in our nicest clothes, prepared individual gifts, and had dinner at a local barbecue house. It was the first time my family went out together to celebrate an event. It was my first time buying my mom a drink and it was also the first time my mom witnessed me drink. It was the first time in a long time, or maybe even ever, my mom was actually treated like a queen.
My mom hates to go out and eat at restaurants (or so she says) so every birthday/graduation/special occasion we end up staying indoors and having a small home-cooked meal; however, this year we decided to do something different. We all dressed in our nicest clothes, prepared individual gifts, and had dinner at a local barbecue house. It was the first time my family went out together to celebrate an event. It was my first time buying my mom a drink and it was also the first time my mom witnessed me drink. It was the first time in a long time, or maybe even ever, my mom was actually treated like a queen.
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Monday, July 30, 2012
Sunday, July 1, 2012
PTL
Sometimes you think your smallest actions won't have much effect but you just need to be patient and have faith with the Spirit's working.
I took a last-minute trip back home because of certain family matters and just discovered an interesting section on my sister's white board. A couple months ago, my sister was really stressed and tired from pulling multiple all-nighters and I, knowing this, decided to send a few comforting verses just for the heck of it. Her response was unclear and I didn't think much of what I had done since I wasn't able to see an immediate impact or outcome.
Well here I am at 2AM, many months later, almost on the verge of tears from finding those same verses written neatly with a black dry-erase marker.
After 7 years, I'm finally able to physically see God slowly moving in my family and it's so beautiful. For the first time in her life, out of her own longing and desire, my sister has expressed interest in going to church and learning about God. Tomorrow morning, I'll be driving her to youth service with a huge smile on my face. I'm so proud of her and extremely excited to see the Father touch her life.
Dang, I know I always say this but HE IS SO GOOD. I think it's mind-blowing that He chooses ME to serve and reach out to the lost, in my sister's case and in others. How could a perfect and holy God think that this lowly sinner is capable of expanding His kingdom?! I don't understand it but then again I guess I don't need to.
JESUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS may my life be fruitful!
I took a last-minute trip back home because of certain family matters and just discovered an interesting section on my sister's white board. A couple months ago, my sister was really stressed and tired from pulling multiple all-nighters and I, knowing this, decided to send a few comforting verses just for the heck of it. Her response was unclear and I didn't think much of what I had done since I wasn't able to see an immediate impact or outcome.
Well here I am at 2AM, many months later, almost on the verge of tears from finding those same verses written neatly with a black dry-erase marker.
After 7 years, I'm finally able to physically see God slowly moving in my family and it's so beautiful. For the first time in her life, out of her own longing and desire, my sister has expressed interest in going to church and learning about God. Tomorrow morning, I'll be driving her to youth service with a huge smile on my face. I'm so proud of her and extremely excited to see the Father touch her life.
Dang, I know I always say this but HE IS SO GOOD. I think it's mind-blowing that He chooses ME to serve and reach out to the lost, in my sister's case and in others. How could a perfect and holy God think that this lowly sinner is capable of expanding His kingdom?! I don't understand it but then again I guess I don't need to.
JESUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS may my life be fruitful!
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